Tuesday, June 11, 2013
im not really sure what to start with, or where to start from. What advise id have to offer or what ideas i bring. all i can say is this path is not one to be taken likely, like alot of dark alleys this one for most will have very little surrender and appreciation for your self worth. you will put more than you will ever get out. There are no answers only more questions the further you stare into it. Ive watched 90% of the people i worked with disappear saying this world was to much bullshit or not enough. its a game to some. players are thrown into a field of a sport that people from mars play... and once you think you have it, it changes cause the rules bend and warp.. some times peel right off like paint on plastic. This is the world that i wish all of us wish to live in, constant struggle , consistent barriers , and systematic oppression / depression / neglect. There is no real way to win... sometimes it takes someone special to see you, sometimes it takes a name to notice you... but for the most part ya hustle, trying to sell pineapples as if they were crack rocks. sometimes you subside and take a day off... or maybe a year ... maybe get a real job and make yourself on the weekends, jamming out in your garage drinking 2 liters and smoking white owls with your friends. Maybe you move downtown and hang with artist's, build up a circle, and just live your life as happy as you can be, void of the stresses of shows and pressure of your ego. knowing the pay off may never come, you may abandon your old self to find what you really wanted out of life. no matter what you choose fight for it like its your last breath under water.. fight for your survival cause i know some of you have nothing else... to be this way is to be sensitive to the world around you, to deal with it is nearly impossible.. maybe we get girlfriends maybe we get nice jobs to buy things to make us happy.. but once you've crossed a line of no return .. once you've seen/ felt how others live, its sometimes hard to pull back. you are w/e you want your life to be... if you think there are things you cant get cause your not rich enough, not powerful enough, not pretty enough, not smart enough. dont worry, cause neither is anyone else ... everyone has the same chances as you. what you have going is yourself.. your culture and your past, your convictions and your successes as a human.. this world is worth fighting for . pick your battles and have a life worth living. if all fails, what will happen tomorrow? the sun will still rise.
the only thing i can tell you is to fail, its the only way your gonna succeed . thank you
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You nailed it. This path is a tough one. One of my future blog subjects is about my role in helping to lead those "to" this path. Not so much leading them down it, but actually to the start of it. Some guilt involved actually.
ReplyDeletethese are all very vague and loose and familiar words of motivation but ive tried being other people, ive tried being something i am not, to gain friends and partners... and others who are really motivated and are passionate about there lives can see write threw you... you created this whole world you live in, you measure how much you want to succeed, how open of a person who you want to be, how private and distant you want to become... what kind of furniture you want to by what kind of food you eat..its all a dilemma and its all interpreted differently. be passionate , be careful and be yourself. pretend your work is like your lover, so close
ReplyDeletehttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CDFC16ptx-0
BOOM. TRUTH. Thank you, Tony."pick your battles and have a life worth living. if all fails, what will happen tomorrow? the sun will still rise." Indeed it will...brilliant.
ReplyDeletethis post really helps me. im in a turning point in my life right now where i'm deciding who i want to be vs who I am meant to be and what i want to obtain and starting to realize it just takes throwing myself at it endlessly until i achieve what i want or discover, in the process of repeated failure, that it isn't something i deeply wanted anyway. i'm at a very strange time in my life, i had an epiphany recently where i realized how everyone's goals are just as far away from them as mine, and the only way to beat them to the goal is to just do it, make use of my experiences and surroundings like a toolbox full of techniques and pathways to make it. we all have the same amount of time to achieve the same things. and regardless of what my goals are, or how i want to obtain them, its going to take repeated failure and putting in more then i want to get out. but i've also found that just starting to work hard is the hardest part. another thing a successful artist friend of mine (who has seemed to "make it" past the hard part of finding yourself in the art world and has found money through doing what he loves) told me, "just do work. do lots of work. shut up about it and do it. don't tell people you are going to, don't tell people your work is better, dont tell people what its going to be about, just do it. and the rest will fall into place" and it really made a lot of sense and changed the way i look at my life and my future
ReplyDeleteYesterday is over.
ReplyDeleteTomorrow ain't happened.
All we have is NOW.
What I have wanted, what I have wanted to do, where I have wanted to be, and who I have wanted to be with has been evolving for as long as I can remember.
My NOW is different than my NOW yesterday, and even more different than my NOW tomorrow. You can't look ahead. You can't look behind.
All we've got is NOW.
Make it the best one you've got.
"but for the most part ya hustle, trying to sell pineapples as if they were crack rocks. sometimes you subside and take a day off... or maybe a year ... maybe get a real job and make yourself on the weekends, jamming out in your garage drinking 2 liters and smoking white owls with your friends."
ReplyDeleteI think any artist can relate to this. Great words, Tony.